wait wait wait wait wait come back here, cancel the email stop whatever you are doing...I found it, in the second page of the fanfic forum, i should look closer. the answer is TYRA BANKS

Win and live. Lose and die. Rule of life. No change rule.
Old man look alive on out side, but dead on inside.
Ayla fight. Ayla no run. Running worse than losing.
- Ayla (Chrono Trigger)